Ronin of the Spirit

Because reality is beautiful.

Breakup poetry.

Ok, seriously, I have to stop posting my random, mostly high school-ish poetry, but I am having so much fun I can’t stop.  Haiku time, kids.

In breakup we both

lost some one we truly loved.

You lost more than I

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July 28, 2009 Posted by | poetry, Self discovery, Slice of life, Uncategorized | , , , , , , | 4 Comments

Attention Deficit Disorder

I’ve been told I have ADD, but I never jumped through all the hoops of real diagnosis, treatment, etc. That said, I don’t know how you normal people do it.  I don’t know how you do the same job for decades at a time.  I got up at six today like I have for about 3 months now.  I get in the same car, go to the same job, and do the same thing.

I am not depressed. Just bored. I am taking full time classes right now.  That’s boring too.  Takes about week to get into the swing of things, then I know the teachers expectations and I bored. I’m thinking about starting my own business, which means I will have to show up at the building for years.  I guess I must.  I do like supporting my family, and that’s hard to do when you change jobs every few months.

But I don’t know how you normal people do it.  I don’t know how you get out of bed in the morning to go do the same thing you did yesterday.  Or how you decide a career, or plan for retirement. (50 years of the same thing? Really?) Sigh.  I’d write more, but I need to put on the same uniform I’ve been wearing for three years, get in the same car I’ve driving for ten months, to drive to the same site I’ve been working at for 4 months.

July 23, 2009 Posted by | Uncategorized | , , , , , , | 8 Comments

Long hour blues

As I’ve said many, many times, on this blog, I was really depressed around the time I was in highschool. I wouldn’t say I was depressed after that, not the dark black blanket over my whole life that real depression is, but I got pretty blue from time to time.

Well, right now, I’m working 60 some hours a week.  I can’t tell if I am having a hard time getting up and going on with my day because I am really tired physically, or if I am having a hard time getting up and going on with my day because I am blue.

I really miss having time to spend with my family, time to go to the gym, time to ride my bike to work, time to eat with my family, and time alone, but I don’t know if my feelings about being at work all the time are getting me down, or if the simple, physical lack of rest is causing it.

Odd.

May 27, 2009 Posted by | Self discovery, Slice of life, Uncategorized | , , , , , | 1 Comment